tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post5502215205030799347..comments2023-06-07T04:51:18.845-06:00Comments on Confessions of a Former Ag Major: Oh, God is good to me...Janethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17615575846268382329noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-57948257326687173232009-10-16T11:22:01.635-06:002009-10-16T11:22:01.635-06:00Hi Janet,
Just sending some extra hugs and prayer...Hi Janet,<br /><br />Just sending some extra hugs and prayers your way. It was both painful and inspiring to read this post. Thank you for sharing your experience.<br /><br />Peace,<br />Cristinajugglingpayneshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10921293051956441475noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-48033720827171456352009-10-09T17:12:03.725-06:002009-10-09T17:12:03.725-06:00Chris, thanks for commenting. Your remarks touched...Chris, thanks for commenting. Your remarks touched me, not because they're inappropriate, but because I HAVE BEEN THERE. Everything you said would have rung true for me when I was in my early twenties. Every last word is something that I would have at least thought, even if I didn't voice it. I need people to know that I have seen miracles. They're so personal that I feel uncomfortable writing them. But know that I have seen them.Janethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17615575846268382329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-27108092734494855072009-10-09T16:33:58.402-06:002009-10-09T16:33:58.402-06:00I'm so happy that you have found peace Janet. ...I'm so happy that you have found peace Janet. I don't know you but I know that you have gone through a hell that no one should have to go through. I am incredibly sorry for your loss.<br /><br />The ideas I expressed in that comment on Brandy's blog seem to be incredibly inappropriate for someone who is experiencing such tragedy.<br /><br />I personally do not find it comforting or useful to believe that there is a divine personality who can take responsibility for the events that bring us our greatest joys and our deepest sorrows.<br /><br />But aside from my personal conclusions about God and the universe I believe that happiness is invaluable and any belief that can comfort someone and help them continue to see their purpose in the face of such trial is of great worth.<br /><br />I admire your strength of character. Good luck in your journey.Chrishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08470804291374122969noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-89629701764302958242009-10-09T08:58:02.351-06:002009-10-09T08:58:02.351-06:00I agree about grief coming in waves. My father di...I agree about grief coming in waves. My father died almost 13 years ago and some days I feel overwhelming grief as if it just happened, certain songs are often what triggers it for me too, but it can be the smallest little thing that just turns that "faucet" on. <br />I've come to think of grief as something that you learn to live with, not something you have and then eventually it goes away.<br />The first year especially is full of tough moments. <br />Janet, it sounds like you have a lot of people around you who will give you support any time you need it, and I am sure you will know when you do. Every body deals with grief in such a unique way that its hard to know what to offer someone besides your sympathy compassion and time. You are handling this with such grace, even if you don't feel that way inside all the time. The blog is a very safe place to let the beast come out once and a while.Ms. Khttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05009075246759797209noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-33773602522163820262009-10-08T20:55:33.434-06:002009-10-08T20:55:33.434-06:00I think Simplymom is right...it comes in waves. I...I think Simplymom is right...it comes in waves. I heard someone compare it to a faucet that just kept getting turned on when they least expected it.katiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01612186748782849969noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-67077019793643540942009-10-08T16:34:16.116-06:002009-10-08T16:34:16.116-06:00Janet,
You are loved, by God and by your friends....Janet, <br />You are loved, by God and by your friends. Please know that I am here anytime and please ask for help when you need it. It is so hard to know what is helpful and what is "in the way." I know when we lost Jason, my grief seemed to come in waves. I would think I was doing better, and then hear a song or see someone else holding their baby, and the pain would come back in earnest. Sometimes music is amazing in saying what you can't express. I understand how you can feel the pain at the same time you feel the love. Love is the only thing that makes the pain bearable. You are in my prayers.Simplymomhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11758682568325475104noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-36622524690374630492009-10-08T13:02:40.261-06:002009-10-08T13:02:40.261-06:00Janet, I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that r...Janet, I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that reaching out into the blog world, the 4-H world, the amazing mommy world and all your other worlds will help to heal and sooth the feelings related to your loss. <br />It is true, what they say, that every day is precious and amazing and not to be taken for granted. <br />Sending hugs and thoughts your way, <br />Megan.Blind Dog Meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00113319910866693335noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-32329500063655005482009-10-08T10:15:24.043-06:002009-10-08T10:15:24.043-06:00Oh, Janet, I'm sorry I'm not there. I hav...Oh, Janet, I'm sorry I'm not there. I have so many thoughts that have been running circles in my brain and I will write you a real letter with them.<br /><br />I love your appleseed song. I love my apricot jam from your tree! That was a nice day when we came to pick apricots and Dave was swimming with the boys in the backyard. God does love us. He wouldn't let this happen unless it was for a supremely important reason, I am sure of this. He gave His Son for us and it must have been the hardest sacrifice. It was not fair. He died too young. He was perfect. But, he had to go to save us all. Maybe Dave has another mission that could only be done away from this life? I keep thinking this. Maybe we have work that we still have to do on earth, that we can't leave this world yet to accomplish. Sometimes I think Dave's heart was not really ever meant for this world. Sometimes I think that there was a part of him that was too kind and tender. I thought this about Uncle Kim too--that there was part of him that was too much for this life.<br /><br />There's this highly mockable video from the LDS church in the 70's called Build You a Rainbow and I was obsessed with it when I was little. The mom tells her son that she's spent more time with her son in 8 years than most moms do in a whole lifetime and I keep thinking about that with Dave. That he was a dad that was there and did so much for his sons and it wasn't long enough, but it was still more than most kids get in a lifetime.katiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01612186748782849969noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-31071928077269059532009-10-08T08:09:00.377-06:002009-10-08T08:09:00.377-06:00I just asked demanded that someone read this post ...I just asked demanded that someone read this post (and the ones before it). Be aware that there are two messages here. One's not a truth, it's from the beast but in order to complete this it had to be included. I couldn't bury it anymore.<br /><br />The other message is from someone much wiser than I am. Please leave the first message and take the last one.Janethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17615575846268382329noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-63803200759610699412009-10-08T06:47:10.509-06:002009-10-08T06:47:10.509-06:00I am so sorry. This post was beautiful. Truly in...I am so sorry. This post was beautiful. Truly inspired and inspiring.Marbelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03396985630486715494noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32845186.post-15567901054134217552009-10-07T23:35:13.001-06:002009-10-07T23:35:13.001-06:00I just think you are amazing, still. always. I kno...I just think you are amazing, still. always. I know it;s hard, but you are brilliant and if you'll just accept help, ask for it if necessary, I know you will be great. If there is anything I can ever do, I am almost always on-line! Sleep, beautiful girl!<br /><br />Hug your boys for me!<br /><br />Also, tell "Santa" he can bring us a kitty if there's a spare who needs a home (we like them sweet).Mrs. B. Rothhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07523283961030307659noreply@blogger.com